This Is It..

I need some time to find myself within me and I need sometime to find true love..but if I don't then I won't stop trying and if I don't then I won't live lying...what do people really want, they wanna be happy... I wanna be happy

this is it..today's my last day here before I leave I know I've been saying all through the summer semester how I can't wait for it to be over and then I can travel but now that it's so soon I feel like I don't wanna go.. I dunno why I just wanna stay here..home..in my room..in my country
but on the other hand I need to get away I feel like I wanna be by myself with no one I know (except my family of course) I wanna be out of touch.. I wanna appreciate the things I have here that's why I wanna leave I wanna appreciate my friends and every thing else and I need some solitude to observe everything around me... kinda leave all the pain and sorrow behind , start fresh

I hate these feelings...I wanna go but I don't wanna go at the same time
but the thing is I dunno why unlike every time we travel I'm not looking forward to it this time

I'm so depressed while I should be happy [song]